Odometer 21329 Mi Temp 35 F 6:46 PM "Touch of Gray"

Recently a fellow co-worker pointed out "You have a gray hair." What I really wanted to say something really sarcastic, like gees u think?! But I couldn't do it. Instead I thanked her and say it the stress. And because I know deep down, let's face it we're all getting older. I'm damn old. My class just had a 10 yr reunion, more than half are married with kids. I qualified for SSN. I no longer can hold on to my childhood. It's time to grow up. Commit to commitment if you will. Strangely though, while I have fears of many things, having one (several...more like 20+) gray hair doesn't brother me. Maybe because I've seen one too many of Touch of Gray commerical. Having gray hair is sexy. Especially when your interviewing in front of a hottie. Haha! I love society.

Odometer 20211 Mi Temp 59 F 10:44 PM "Rapide"

Aston Martin Rapide: Best looking 4 door ever!


It should only take me about until retirement, not eating, not spending any money to buy one but it'll be so worth it!

Odometer 19860 Mi Temp 33 F 8:41 PM "First Snow"

Today was the first snowfall of the season in New England. Pretty early for this part of the area. Lucky for me I had the day off so I thankfully avoided the traffic standstill that is I-84 because even though most of us know how to drive in the snow, most of us don't know how to drive in the snow. But I leave that as separate story.

My first experience with snow wasn't here in the U.S. Rather it was near based of Mt. Fuji. Of course I have no recognition of this wonderful experience other than the family picture posted on the wall. But still I'm sure it was pretty cool. My next snow experience would be several years later in the middle of the Anchorage Alaska airport, eastbound to NYC...

Odometer 18854 Mi Temp 72 F 10:49 PM "Noodle Craving"

My recent noodle craving had me inspired to open a noodle shop. Not the fake, instant noodle that come in a soup, or cheap take out noodle. But true authentic thin wonton, egg noodle shop. So delicious!

But first I need a noodle master...

Odometer 18072 Mi Temp 59 F 1:59 PM "Carded"

Haha! Well, it's great to know even with my recent turn of age that I was still stopped by the bouncer at the Sands.

Kudos to you Mr. Security Guy for thinking I'm still some 18 yrs old punk ass kid!

Odometer 17332 Mi Temp 80 F 9:24 PM "Has it been 10 yrs?"

Received an invitation on FB for my high school reunion.

Odometer 17332 Mi Temp 80 F 8:39 PM "Feedback"

So I'm great at giving feedback, to friends, to folks at work, or to people in general.

Not to brag about myself (which in self is a rare feat) but I think I make a pretty good manager. I delegate well and take personal involvement and pride to make sure folks that I managed get to their careers goals.

But I'm lousy at receiving feedback.

So what does that say about me when not one but several folks tells me, in not so many words, on various occasions that as person, that I'm stiff and uptight, and that I'm way too intense? I don't response well to it because truth is they're absolutely right. I am uptight, and I put 200% into my work, even when it's unnecessary. I can't/don't know how to stop. and even when I let my guard down on rare incident, I immediately regret it or get into trouble. So I stop. I keep my guard up and hope things will naturally evolve.

I know I'm being unreasonable to myself. My friends tell me to just let go and do something random, meet people outside of work, and I even convinced myself I should. I just can't muster the strength to do it.

I guess acknowledging it is a good step to self realization...baby steps...