So I'm great at giving feedback, to friends, to folks at work, or to people in general.
Not to brag about myself (which in self is a rare feat) but I think I make a pretty good manager. I delegate well and take personal involvement and pride to make sure folks that I managed get to their careers goals.
But I'm lousy at receiving feedback.
So what does that say about me when not one but several folks tells me, in not so many words, on various occasions that as person, that I'm stiff and uptight, and that I'm way too intense? I don't response well to it because truth is they're absolutely right. I am uptight, and I put 200% into my work, even when it's unnecessary. I can't/don't know how to stop. and even when I let my guard down on rare incident, I immediately regret it or get into trouble. So I stop. I keep my guard up and hope things will naturally evolve.
I know I'm being unreasonable to myself. My friends tell me to just let go and do something random, meet people outside of work, and I even convinced myself I should. I just can't muster the strength to do it.
I guess acknowledging it is a good step to self realization...baby steps...
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